. . .Must... study...
darf studieren...
2004/04/12
2004/04/10
Changes
. . .I really gotta stop this non-studying late-nights thing. Last night, stayed up 'til 7:00am just chatting to a friend online. And tonight, I was on the phone for 5 hours... (finished at around 2:00am). And I'm thinking of going back into Toronto in about 5 hours. Dun feel like sleeping really... I think it's cuz I'll probably die. lol... barely ate anything in the past few days. Rather dangerous, really.
. . .K, gonna sleep... No need to catch the *first* bus outta here... 10:30am sounds soo much better than the 7:30 one... Whee...
. . .K, gonna sleep... No need to catch the *first* bus outta here... 10:30am sounds soo much better than the 7:30 one... Whee...
2004/04/09
Languages
. . .Another rant. Or I think it might be. 'cuz it's late. And I'm still up. (sorta). Anyways... psyching myself into studying for german/calc. sorta gave up on the stats. *shrugs* Sorta makes one wonder why I wanna learn other languages. I mean, it's not like I have trouble communicating in English. (well, I certainly hope not!)
. . .German. Such an inflected language. Sometimes get the accusative and the genitive cases mixed up, but that's ok. I mean, things don't always translate well, even between two languages like English and German. But I've been wondering -- why do I "need" to learn other languages? Even if I could master German to the level my English is, can I still do the same for Mandarin? Japanese? French?
. . .Is this some subconcious attempt at hiding my thoughts, feelings, etc? To be able to "think" in different languages so that people can't understand me? Nobody likes to be easily read. But nobody likes to be entirely invisible either... At least, I don't. Learning other languages is cool though. Wrapping one's mind around different grammatical (and consequent conceptual) implications that language has on thought is really fun for me. And learning German is making it so much easier for me to understand/read middle English texts. Even the king james version of the bible sounds more natural. lol. I can see why they used "thine" instead of "thy" or why "thou couldst" is ok but "I couldst" isn't. Ah, from a time when verbal conjugation in English was a little more labourous than just adding an "s" for the third-person singular.
. . .But alas, speaking of such things won't exactly help me pass my German final. I'm really gonna have to learn all that grammar that I missed in 201... having not taken the class and stuff. :S Not even sure how I'm even managing to stay in this 202 german class. :S I should pick up some children's book or sth. There's bound to be such resources in this area -- having such a strong German population. Hrrmm... And studying for calc is really about minimizing the number of marks I lose on the exam cuz really, there's not chance in H. that I'm gonna be able to pass it with flying colours.
. . .lalala... I think I'm too tired to be able to think clearly... my brain is really like, turning into mulsh. guhh... Only one more week, and I can relax. ^___^
. . .German. Such an inflected language. Sometimes get the accusative and the genitive cases mixed up, but that's ok. I mean, things don't always translate well, even between two languages like English and German. But I've been wondering -- why do I "need" to learn other languages? Even if I could master German to the level my English is, can I still do the same for Mandarin? Japanese? French?
. . .Is this some subconcious attempt at hiding my thoughts, feelings, etc? To be able to "think" in different languages so that people can't understand me? Nobody likes to be easily read. But nobody likes to be entirely invisible either... At least, I don't. Learning other languages is cool though. Wrapping one's mind around different grammatical (and consequent conceptual) implications that language has on thought is really fun for me. And learning German is making it so much easier for me to understand/read middle English texts. Even the king james version of the bible sounds more natural. lol. I can see why they used "thine" instead of "thy" or why "thou couldst" is ok but "I couldst" isn't. Ah, from a time when verbal conjugation in English was a little more labourous than just adding an "s" for the third-person singular.
. . .But alas, speaking of such things won't exactly help me pass my German final. I'm really gonna have to learn all that grammar that I missed in 201... having not taken the class and stuff. :S Not even sure how I'm even managing to stay in this 202 german class. :S I should pick up some children's book or sth. There's bound to be such resources in this area -- having such a strong German population. Hrrmm... And studying for calc is really about minimizing the number of marks I lose on the exam cuz really, there's not chance in H. that I'm gonna be able to pass it with flying colours.
. . .lalala... I think I'm too tired to be able to think clearly... my brain is really like, turning into mulsh. guhh... Only one more week, and I can relax. ^___^
2004/04/08
Decided
. . .It's final; I'm not coming back this weekend. I know it's easter, etc, but I have exams... the stress is slowly rising... As well as my fat levels... :'( I dun like being blubbery... T_T Aanyways... German, Multivar. Calc, or Stats? Hrrm....
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. . .W00t! LoL... 1.5% of total population. I wonder which personality type is the most rare? hrrmm.... Is this accurate? Dunno... took it twice, both 1.5%, but ehh... the actually results varied a bit... with the concious-surface type and unconcious-overall type bit.
Veiled Thoughts
. . .I shouldn't be blogging right now; big exams to study for. But I've been thinking recently on... "stuff". haha... I was up 'til 5:00am on the phone last night cuz uhh.. yah, my friend and I are just that dumb. (To be fair, the phone convo didn't start 'til like, 3:00am, but still...) Yah.... woke up at around 11:30am today, thankfully. Was able to play/waste the rest of the morning away so that I can afford the time to work in the afternoon. :P
. . .Anyways... back to "stuff". So much to think about, and so much more that I've stopped thinking about. Where do I stand? Where am I going? What am I doing? How am I doing? What am I? What am I to you? Who are you to me? etc, etc... Certain conversation snippits forced me into thinking about certain things, while certain other things help keep me from thinking too deeply. Nirvana, eh?
. . .Social Intercourse, really. How is it that I get along with some people, but not with others? Why is it that my friend gets along with different people than me? Because we're different? Or because *I'm* different? Been discovering some things about a certain friend, most of which isn't entirely positive nor encouraging. And while all it takes is the simple *will* -- the desire -- to maintain a friendship, I think I'd rather submit to the gales of change and accept that our walk together has ended.
. . .Auf einem anderen Thema, I've been thinking about girls. (Quelle surprise, non?) But more about whether or not I'm to marry in life. I imagine during exam week isn't the best time to be contemplating such things, but what errant thoughts that've managed to stray from containment, what is one to do but to catch them? Even just thinking about the age-range of the people I've been hanging out with more recently. Everybody's so much younger. Though of course, the gap only closes via senescence. But certainly at this current point in time... Though I may be thinking about such things, I don't really think my peers would be, being so much younger.
. . .As for whom I like... *shrugs* who knows? I might just end up falling for someone. Or perhaps never. I've been told and assured that a relationship isn't quite the same as a friendship, but somehow, I think that a friendship is in most cases prefered. Of course, if I find that 'perfect' someone... But I leave that to the currents of fate. ^_^
. . .Anyways... My sketchbook beckons... Hopefully there'll be something to earn 5 seconds of your time on my dA site this weekend. :P
. . .Anyways... back to "stuff". So much to think about, and so much more that I've stopped thinking about. Where do I stand? Where am I going? What am I doing? How am I doing? What am I? What am I to you? Who are you to me? etc, etc... Certain conversation snippits forced me into thinking about certain things, while certain other things help keep me from thinking too deeply. Nirvana, eh?
. . .Social Intercourse, really. How is it that I get along with some people, but not with others? Why is it that my friend gets along with different people than me? Because we're different? Or because *I'm* different? Been discovering some things about a certain friend, most of which isn't entirely positive nor encouraging. And while all it takes is the simple *will* -- the desire -- to maintain a friendship, I think I'd rather submit to the gales of change and accept that our walk together has ended.
. . .Auf einem anderen Thema, I've been thinking about girls. (Quelle surprise, non?) But more about whether or not I'm to marry in life. I imagine during exam week isn't the best time to be contemplating such things, but what errant thoughts that've managed to stray from containment, what is one to do but to catch them? Even just thinking about the age-range of the people I've been hanging out with more recently. Everybody's so much younger. Though of course, the gap only closes via senescence. But certainly at this current point in time... Though I may be thinking about such things, I don't really think my peers would be, being so much younger.
. . .As for whom I like... *shrugs* who knows? I might just end up falling for someone. Or perhaps never. I've been told and assured that a relationship isn't quite the same as a friendship, but somehow, I think that a friendship is in most cases prefered. Of course, if I find that 'perfect' someone... But I leave that to the currents of fate. ^_^
. . .Anyways... My sketchbook beckons... Hopefully there'll be something to earn 5 seconds of your time on my dA site this weekend. :P
2004/04/06
Disinterest
. . .Feeling horribly unmotivated at the moment. Not sure if it's due to my lack of sleep, excess sleep, lack of protein, or just collective school stress (for not having taken a term off in 2 years). Yes, that's right, 2 years. That means I've been in school all year 'round, winter, summer, spring, autumn (not necessarily in that order :P). The last summer break I had was July/August 2002... My, that was a long time ago... And I'll probably be doing some MORE school for at least 2 more terms.
. . .GAH~!! I *might* be doing co-op at my favourite school, or I might take up a tempting offer for residence in Uni for the fall... It ultimately comes down to money, sadly. I think. I mean, should I actually *have* the oppertunity to do co-op in the fall, I'll have the *experience* to put on my résumé, but then comes the complications of Toronto residence; I can't work in my condo; too much distraction. On the other hand, if I were to stay in Waterloo, I'd be able to take those Pmath courses and graduate early with a minor in pure math. I wonder if I can do the co-op term in the winter.... hrrmm... k, note to self: phone school contact.
. . .GAH~!! I *might* be doing co-op at my favourite school, or I might take up a tempting offer for residence in Uni for the fall... It ultimately comes down to money, sadly. I think. I mean, should I actually *have* the oppertunity to do co-op in the fall, I'll have the *experience* to put on my résumé, but then comes the complications of Toronto residence; I can't work in my condo; too much distraction. On the other hand, if I were to stay in Waterloo, I'd be able to take those Pmath courses and graduate early with a minor in pure math. I wonder if I can do the co-op term in the winter.... hrrmm... k, note to self: phone school contact.
2004/04/05
Gifts~
. . .Small, short but sweet list. =)
Longines wrist-watch
. . ."La Grande Classique de Longines" inscribed on the back. The case for it was heavier than the watch itself..
King James Vest Pocket Edition (with New Testament and Psalms)
. . .Haha! my favourite sort of English at work! thou, thee, thy, thine, etc. mweeheehee...
Hand-made Windchimes
. . .Cost of materials were minimal, but the time and effort (and artistry!) are simply amazing. Thank goodness I took pics of the wrapping before peeling it apart. :P
Icewine
. . .Canadian? From LCBO? Yah. Not terribly familiar with the world of alcohol. ^^; But it's the thought that counts.
Cancelled/Nullified IOU
. . .Originally owed someone $20... Which sorta got 'forgiven' in light of my birthday. lol... friends are a funny bunch o' folks.
Dinner/mug
. . .Friends decided to split my bill for dinner... and didn't tell me how much they ended up spending... damnit... grr... Also got free merchandise from East Side Marios -- a free mug... which my friends later filled with candy. lol.
So, thanks ppl for a wonderful weekend! In order of appearance (or lack thereof):
Sis -- yah. Saturday was cool... Sunday... well, kinda hard to reach you when you give me *your* cellphone, then disappear with some boys from church...
Ian -- ^__^ thx for driving us to the place, eh? I'll make it up to you someday... ^^;
Steve -- You're gonna be my catalyst to get me drinking, huh...
Joerick -- You were über-stressed, and yet you still managed to force yourself out. ~^_^~
Vix -- thx also for driving us! (when's your b-day again? ;P)
Aaron -- thx for the ride afterwards... and for letting us use your super-cool basement. :D
Lena -- Next time try to hide your boredom better, please? :P But thanks anyways for coming out. And thanks for the most awesome present. =)
Jeff -- when was the last time we saw each other, eh?! Must have been in the beginning of autumn... that was like, almost 8 months ago! @_@
Echo -- too bad you couldn't stay... :( But thanks for making that guest appearance! :P
Shells -- Not bitter at all... >_<
Ally -- Not bitter either... And how is it that I'm representative of several fiercely differing subjects of the animal kingdom!? (all the while, not one is the sovereign... grr...)
Everybody else -- If I didn't invite you, sorry! It's either 'cuz I knew you'd be busy/stressed with finals, or unreasonably far (e.g. London, Ottawa, etc). m(_ _)m
. . .But what this experience has really taught me is that I should have/keep/maintain a birthday calendar... Makes planning a tad easier, and also gives me more time to find/make something suitable. So, leave a comment or msg me on msn with your b-day if I don't already have it! (and in all likelyhood, I really don't... I only know about ehh... 9 ppl's b-day's? And that's including family...)
Longines wrist-watch
. . ."La Grande Classique de Longines" inscribed on the back. The case for it was heavier than the watch itself..
King James Vest Pocket Edition (with New Testament and Psalms)
. . .Haha! my favourite sort of English at work! thou, thee, thy, thine, etc. mweeheehee...
Hand-made Windchimes
. . .Cost of materials were minimal, but the time and effort (and artistry!) are simply amazing. Thank goodness I took pics of the wrapping before peeling it apart. :P
Icewine
. . .Canadian? From LCBO? Yah. Not terribly familiar with the world of alcohol. ^^; But it's the thought that counts.
Cancelled/Nullified IOU
. . .Originally owed someone $20... Which sorta got 'forgiven' in light of my birthday. lol... friends are a funny bunch o' folks.
Dinner/mug
. . .Friends decided to split my bill for dinner... and didn't tell me how much they ended up spending... damnit... grr... Also got free merchandise from East Side Marios -- a free mug... which my friends later filled with candy. lol.
So, thanks ppl for a wonderful weekend! In order of appearance (or lack thereof):
Sis -- yah. Saturday was cool... Sunday... well, kinda hard to reach you when you give me *your* cellphone, then disappear with some boys from church...
Ian -- ^__^ thx for driving us to the place, eh? I'll make it up to you someday... ^^;
Steve -- You're gonna be my catalyst to get me drinking, huh...
Joerick -- You were über-stressed, and yet you still managed to force yourself out. ~^_^~
Vix -- thx also for driving us! (when's your b-day again? ;P)
Aaron -- thx for the ride afterwards... and for letting us use your super-cool basement. :D
Lena -- Next time try to hide your boredom better, please? :P But thanks anyways for coming out. And thanks for the most awesome present. =)
Jeff -- when was the last time we saw each other, eh?! Must have been in the beginning of autumn... that was like, almost 8 months ago! @_@
Echo -- too bad you couldn't stay... :( But thanks for making that guest appearance! :P
Shells -- Not bitter at all... >_<
Ally -- Not bitter either... And how is it that I'm representative of several fiercely differing subjects of the animal kingdom!? (all the while, not one is the sovereign... grr...)
Everybody else -- If I didn't invite you, sorry! It's either 'cuz I knew you'd be busy/stressed with finals, or unreasonably far (e.g. London, Ottawa, etc). m(_ _)m
. . .But what this experience has really taught me is that I should have/keep/maintain a birthday calendar... Makes planning a tad easier, and also gives me more time to find/make something suitable. So, leave a comment or msg me on msn with your b-day if I don't already have it! (and in all likelyhood, I really don't... I only know about ehh... 9 ppl's b-day's? And that's including family...)
2004/04/04
Mist
. . .Today actually ended up being pretty good! :) We were all a lil' late for the dinner thing, but we managed to give everybody a ride. I feel soo bad for making my friends drive other people around though... T_T
. . .After dinner (of which, even I split with someone, we both still couldn't finish the pasta) we took a looooooooooong time deciding what to do. Eventually, we ended up going to itchniba's place and watched Kill Bill. Then we took some random photos (thanks Lena for the wonderful gift!) and chatted about EH and stuffstuff. People left at around 1:00am, and eh yah... I ended up watching Lost in Translation after that. It was an interesting movie. Not sure what to make of it, cuz I'm sure the time might have altered my perception or sth.
. . .But a big thank you to all of you who made it to my dinner! Even though you might not have known each other, you still forced yourself to come for me. Aww~~ ~^_^~ Yes, I'm feeling the love. lol.
. . .And now as I type, I'm not sure if my host has fallen asleep upstairs (after playing SC), or if he's busy with sth else... hrrmm... Church starts in about 5 hours. In about 16 minutes as I type this, I'll have been 21 years old for exactly 24 hours. Scary thought, huh... the daylight savings time thing doesn't make it easy to count though.... ah, crappit. That means I really don't have that much time, huh... *thud*
. . .Meanwhile... not sure what to do for "tomorrow" (i.e. Sunday). Not entirely sure on what's happening. But today was good. =] thanks a billion, guys~
. . .After dinner (of which, even I split with someone, we both still couldn't finish the pasta) we took a looooooooooong time deciding what to do. Eventually, we ended up going to itchniba's place and watched Kill Bill. Then we took some random photos (thanks Lena for the wonderful gift!) and chatted about EH and stuffstuff. People left at around 1:00am, and eh yah... I ended up watching Lost in Translation after that. It was an interesting movie. Not sure what to make of it, cuz I'm sure the time might have altered my perception or sth.
. . .But a big thank you to all of you who made it to my dinner! Even though you might not have known each other, you still forced yourself to come for me. Aww~~ ~^_^~ Yes, I'm feeling the love. lol.
. . .And now as I type, I'm not sure if my host has fallen asleep upstairs (after playing SC), or if he's busy with sth else... hrrmm... Church starts in about 5 hours. In about 16 minutes as I type this, I'll have been 21 years old for exactly 24 hours. Scary thought, huh... the daylight savings time thing doesn't make it easy to count though.... ah, crappit. That means I really don't have that much time, huh... *thud*
. . .Meanwhile... not sure what to do for "tomorrow" (i.e. Sunday). Not entirely sure on what's happening. But today was good. =] thanks a billion, guys~
2004/04/03
Temporal Advancement
. . .So I turned 21 as of 5:06 this morning. Though I didn't bother staying up for it or anything. Woke up about 30 minutes ago. I scheduled a dinner, and hopefully bbt afterwards. If only we had a hangout spot. My living room is in no condition to be receiving guests. And I don't really feel like carrying a looooooooong conversation with ppl in a dimly-lit room -- it somehow makes me feel sleepy or disinclined to talk. Not sure why...
. . .Anyways... Interesting fact for the day: Did you know that I was born on Easter Sunday? If only that actually meant something... lol.
. . .Anyways... Interesting fact for the day: Did you know that I was born on Easter Sunday? If only that actually meant something... lol.
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