2003/12/30

~Memories~

. . .Cleaning the house today, cuz it still has the feeling of "just moved in" when I stumbled upon a set of post/cards that a certain someone sent to me (around 1998). And suddenly, I remembered the person -- how close we used to be, how good friends we used to be, and the HOURS on the phone that we'd chat. But then, we both grew up, and with the changing of churches and staggered differing career goals, we eventually lost contact.
. . .When I think about it, that friend was more of a friend than almost anybody else, if only because she was strong enough to tolerate and even accept my caddish behaviour at the time. But now...
. . .Well, it's been (quite literally) years since we last spoke to each other. Sadly, I don't even know where she is or how she's doing. God's will? Dunno. Free-will? Too much effort. But even if we never meet again, we'll always have those memories~.
. . .^_^

Ashley Riot

. . .*yawns* Just woke up... Didn't do much these past few days... my plans for yesterday were cancelled due to illness, as well as my plans for today (probably). I can't believe I wasted my entire day yesterday on Vagrant Story (PSX game). Today I'm going to have to either finish an illustration, buy myself that 120-colour Prisma pencil crayon set, or complete one of those two poems I was working on.
. . .Perhaps when I finish one of them I'll post it online... =)

2003/12/25

~Christmas~

. . .Went karaokeing the other day. That was fun. Kinda. That's my last time going to MHQ though; not an amazing collection of Japanese/English songs. It's so hard a multilingually broad karaoke place... *sighs*
. . .my first time riding in the trunk as well. That was kinda fun. Never had to play the part of the joker before... (I always kinda saw myself as more of the advisor/strategist figure in the group.) Luckily, I was getting open circulation, so nothing terribly nerve-wracking. And MAN, I will never plan anything so last-minute again in my life. Yeeash. That's why it pays to be organised. =)
. . .I cut my hair yesterday... (last chance to see me like this) ... to the surprise of many, many people (yesterday was also the Christmas church function). Everybody was like, "AHh!!!" They said it was good, but I hated it. I like, got into an argument with the hair-dresser. lol... but ah well. He did what he thought looked good, and I bore with it for a day.
. . .It was fun seeing everybody at church yesterday. Some people didn't come (hrrmm...) But it was fun nevertheless. I got to see someone I haven't seen in like, a year!!! Maaann... I feel soo bad for how I treated him a few years ago... ... but if I told him that, he might beat me up or something... =(
. . .That night, I was up until around 3:00am moving things around. (I almost literally rotated my room 90°.) The bed, a small desk and a very heavy book shelf. @_@ But it's all good now. I can't say I'm very satisfied with my bedroom layout right now, but at the very least I have full access to my bookshelf. (which currently still needs to be restocked. =P)
. . .This morning, I woke up incredibly early (9:00am) and felt like throwing up. That was fun. Had a bunch of small things for breakfast (leftover pancakes, a boiled egg, a bun with margarine, and bits of salmon). Then played around with my hair. A lot. I think I finally found something workable. Which is to say, with a lil' bit of hair wax and a lil' bit of gel, I'll be one happy short-haired male. =)
. . .Not really sure how to describe it... I guess I lil' like Kaworu's hair (from Evangelion)... only... less mop-top... =P Sorry, Brendan. I found my white hair again!! I mean, how cool is that!? My mother tells me that she had one or two white hairs when she was 12... but not much afterwards. So I guess I'm a long time waiting for a full head of white hair... Even though that'd be soo COOL if I did... especially if I were still in my twenties. Mweeheehee... *goes off into an unrealistic delusion*
. . .ahem. Aaanyways... =P Yah, I think I'm gonna have to go get some wax now... hehe... I can't believe I found a short-hair style I like!!! This is so crazy... Who has a camera? =P

2003/12/22

House and Home (part 2)

. . .Hello, dear readers!!! Ah, I'm feeling good today. No jetlag at all, partly cuz of my wacky sleeping schedule, and I'm currently working on two poems. One is called "Chaos Supreme" and the other is called 狐狸精 err... don't really know how to translate that one... ...just cuz of all the implications/connotations it has as well. Both are going slowly; trying out a wacky rhyming scheme, but not sure how well it's working yet...
. . .Been thinking a lot... ...perhaps too much so; still not finished my essays... I hope I don't fail. Aside from that, it's great to be back, trying to recover everything.. hehe... Hope to get to see ya all sometime this Winter!!!!!
. . .My trip was ... ... well, you can read all about it in my past blog entries. =) Looking forward to tomorrow!! Christmas fun stuffs. Dinner and something. Kinda fearing for part of the church, but nothing I can do right now 'cept pray.
. . .Ah, men. Men... ... ... 'boys', really, when one thinks about it. It's sad but true, I think. Perhaps I should write an article about the gaucherie of men someday... Meanwhile, I really gotta finish those essays, so I'll be disappearing now...

2003/12/21

House and Home (part 1)

. . .Yay, I'm back in Toronto! ...and I'm horribly tired; will blog more later.

2003/12/17

Shoutouts

. . .This is only gonna be a shoutout to those whose name appear on the right of this page -- to the authors of the blogs I read. =)
Shelly: Ah!! Sorry I didn't get to see you on saturday, but ehh... something about still being an ocean away... heh....heh.....heh........................... But yah, hope you're having an awesome time in New York!
Ivan: :'( Haven't seen you in so long either... how're you??? the co-op term is almost finished, right? I'll be seeing you in UW!! ;) Speaking of which, remind me to ask you a question... ... ... keyword is uhh... ... ... ... "Columbia".
Perry: Ahh~!!! We really gotta hook up; I haven't seen you in like, two years or something.. (feels like two years anyways)
Valerie: Snow... is fun... ... sometimes... ... =P
Nanette: Karaoke sound good? =) Can you believe I haven't been to a karaoke place ONCE in my three months in Taiwan/HK??
Aaron: UW funtimes... whee... But you're helping me with CS133/134 (whichever I have to take), riiight? :D
Alex: Haven't seen you online in AGES... :'( drop me a line sometime~
B.P.: I'll be seeing you this weekend! ;)

Alpha and Omega (why Greek?)

First best friend: David Lee... ... though I think it was more like a special title between children who didn't really know the meaning of such things.
First real memory of something: explaining atomic theory to my dad on the beach. ...in the form of sand. I was perhaps three- or four-years old at the time.
First date: N/A
First break-up: N/A
First job: Let's not speak about such things... ... soo bitter... :'(
First screen name: blackcat
First self purchased album: Guhh... ... ... ... My first music CD was Beethovan's 5th Symphony.
First pet: same as last pet -- my cat, Smokey. Who was cruely and unjustly given away to suffer God-knows-what horrible fate.
First piercing/tattoo: N/A
First true love: N/A
First enemy: Everybody... they're all around me... *shifty eyes*
First trip: from inside the womb to the outside world. This was incidentally the same time of my birthdate.
First play/musical/performance: Christmas pagent when I was four or five-years old.
First musician you remember hearing in your house: someone who was dead for at least a century.

LASTS

Last cigarette: N/A
Last good cry: don't remember.
Last library book checked out: Some reference book about the Chinese influence on Japanese architecture.
Last movie seen: Infernal Affairs III (HK movie, really interesting)
Last beverage drank: water. Clear, clean and under control.
Last food consumed: Pringles, original.
Last crush: Lost with the sands of time.
Last phone call: long-D home.
Last tv show watched: T... V... ? This Cantonese comedy show.
Last time showered: a few hours ago.
Last shoes worn: trainers.
Last song played: "Whiteout" by Garnett Crow
Last item bought: a coat. (see entry "Fragments")
Last annoyance: Cantonese society
Last disappointment: A few hours ago; cousin cancelled tomorrow's plans.
Last soda drank: Cola from my aunt's fridge.
Last ice cream eaten: Lord knows how long ago THAT was...
Last time wanting to die: Now?
Last time scolded: scolded... ... as in being told off by an older relative something one did wrong? Hrmm... depends on one's definition of 'wrong'. =)
Last shirt worn: my cream-coloured sweater.
Last website visited: this one.

2003/12/16

Linguistic Acrobat

. . .A student of law needn't become a lawyer to arrive to the same realization as a tourist in HK -- both quickly develop a distrust for language. I'd elaborate, but after a line like that, I doubt any reader would be too eager to really analyse what I'm saying... ...or they'd be analyzing too deeply, trying to figure out what I "really" mean. lol...

2003/12/15

Fragments

. . .So apparently, it's a bad idea to tell someone about their faults when they're unhappy. Which logically, means that it's a good idea to tell someone about their faults when they're happy. 'Cuz ya know, what's mediocrity anyways, right? It's all about the left or right; right or wrong; black or white; good or evil.
. . .I got a really nice coat today. 70% discount too!! It's actually so nice that I don't want to modify it anymore. I guess I gotta be really creative with my coat "accessories" instead of coat additions. *Purrs* Mmmm.... It's so nice and soft... ... Italian too... If only the inside of the coat didn't look so tacky. LoL... but that part isn't seen anyways, so I guess it's all good.
. . .The Cantonese are very strange... ... it's either "I couldn't care less" or "I yell at you for your own good". The concept of "encouragement" isn't very popular (nay, nascent) here in HK. At least, from what I've seen. And apparently, not wanting to be sad is selfish.

2003/12/13

Shelly's quiz

1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
. .E², and we already know why.
2. Am I loveable?
. .Ehh... ... ... ...
3. How long have you known me?
. .About 5 years, maybe.
4. When and how did we first meet?
. .Church
5. What was your first impression?
. .let's not go there
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
. .Hrrm...
7. What do you think my weakness is?
. .What?! singular? Maaan...
8. Do you think I'll get married?
. .Scary but true.
9. What makes me happy?
. .Four 6'-tall well-built gay asians.
10. What makes me sad?
. .The loss of something happy
11. What reminds you of me?
. .The main character in that Chinese novel I'm reading.
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
. .Absolutely nothing. Mission accomplished!!
13. How well do you know me?
. .Too well...
14. When's the last time you saw me?
. .When last I was in Toronto or something... ... so about 3 months ago.
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
. .Hrrm...
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
. .If looks could kill... :P
17. Describe me in one word.
. .Ecky-ecky-ecky-ecky-pakang-zupboing-graourii
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
. .Ehh... Staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
. .well, actually... =P
20. Are you going to put this on your livejournal/xanga/blogspot and see what I say about you?
. .Guess.

2003/12/12

Sheer Brilliance

. . .I went to my Japanese blogsite about to blog in Japanese when I realized that I have no way of typing in Japanese on this chinese computer... So I'm now patiently downloading the Japanese IME at like, 8k/s... ...which just dropped to 4k/s. Hrrmm.... this isn't worth it.
. . .Meanwhile I've landed safetly in HK, had dinner, and am now online... ... talking to nobody, really. Heh. Well, I *was* talking to some friends, but they disappeared for various reasons (food/school/travel). And as much as I'd like to stay up all night online, travel really takes a heavy toll on me... I gotta sleeeeeeeeeeeep~

2003/12/11

~Bittersweet~

. . .Ah, I had the BEST dessert yesterday!!! So Ezzy, this one's for you!! ;)
. . .So after the English lesson yesterday, after being given a TON of presents and stuff (which in itself was sheer madness), I was treated to dinner for teaching these two ladies their kids English. The meal itself wasn't too bad; nothing exotic.
. . .Oh, but the dessert!!! In Chinese it was called something like "Lover's fruit". And basically it was a bunch of sliced up green fruit in crushed ice... and it was sooo good!!!! Apparently, what they do is get some unripe (green) mangoes and slice 'em up into small slices. Then they're salted. Then sugared. Then smoked (for flavour/preservation). Lastly, they're frozen and served with crushed ice. And MMmmmm, was it GOOD!!!!! Ah~ It totally made my day from the semi-near-death experience I had encountered just before my English lesson.
. . .Ya see, on my way from the office to my student's house, I was riding a bus. And at one point, the bus was about to start accelerating, getting at a pretty decent speed when it suddenly lunges to a grinding halt to prevent crashing into a stupid van. So everybody is lunged forward. Luckily, I was seated and my head didn't crash into the seat in front of me. However, as we all know from the physics of car crashes, even if your body is stopped from moving at those speeds, your internal organs are still going, so I ended up with a major headache the rest of the way from the train station to the start of the English lesson.
. . .Finally, we've been doing some Chinese knot thingys... kinda like arts and crafts -- making those funky knots that are usually used in those red-string jade things. And I was called a genius in class! Yes! Mwahaha. But eh.... the class president seems firm in her belief that I'm only 18 years old. Like, what the gay?! Another girl, whom I suspect is interested in me (purely platonically), turned out to be 26. I'm like, "eekk!!" I really AM the youngest person in my class... it's sooo scary... ... ... ah well, at least I'm getting better marks than them. Mwahahaaaaa...
. . .Tomorrow's the last day of class as well as my last day in Taiwan this year. I forgot to renew my visa, so I don't know if that'll complicate my departure/next arrival from/to Taiwan... Anywhoo, I'll get to see my aunt from my father's side, so that aught to be cool. I'll get to go shopping and discard some of my more not-so-tasteful T-shirts. :P I can just see that winter jacket already... Mmmm... (lol)

2003/12/10

Keen

. . .Yah, I know, I'm cheap; all I did was fiddle with the colour scheme without making any drastic changes to the layout of this place. I really don't like the fonts so I'll (hopefully) figure out some clever way to change that soon enough...
. . .Speaking of the colour scheme, I'm not terribly proud of them either. It's "happy" and stuff, but not as harmonious and suiting for me as I'd like. I guess I'll tinker with it some more once my essays are out of the way.

2003/12/09

Trilingualism!

. . .So if I can direct dear readers once again to the right, you'll notice there's a new link -- Japanese Blog!!! Yes, I've finally started a blog in Japanese, just for kicks. Mwahahaa... English still remains the main blog, but the other two'll be *some* sort of way for me to maintain my multilingual computing skills. :P Now, all I need are some AMAZING dictionaries... ... and free time... ... like, about 30 years' worth of free time... give me the freedom to actually learn a language thoroughly. Mweeheehee..
. . .I'm not going to be sexist or racist, but I'll just say that the girls in my Chin. Lit. class aren't the most dexterous... The teacher (for fun) decided to teach us some Chinese knot crafts -- the kind where you make these fancy knots and thread in beads and stuff along the way, resulting in some funky animal or pattern. Anyways, I was the only one who was getting it; all the girls were screwing up their knots and stuff... but they have the personalities of coarse barbarians, so I guess I shouldn't be surprised that they can't handle these delicate arts.
. . .Meanwhile, time continues to flow and I seem to have lost motivation to work...

2003/12/07

Scrambled Eggs

. . .Sunday afternoon/evening was pretty good; went on a shopping spree. ^___^ I bought two pair of pants, and various trinkets/gifts for ehh.. ...
. . .I'm leaving the country 8 days before the first Chinese Mandarin proficiency exam (administered by the Taiwanese government). yarg! And GDI (guess what that stands for. :P)
. . .Musing about various other things in Taiwan culture, partly because I have to finish that essay, and secondly because they guys around here are just .. .... so different.. ... from me, anyways. haha.
. . .Meanwhile, I still have to figure out some brilliant thank-you gifts for my aunt/uncle, mom's friend, etc. Yah, this is gonna be fun..
. . .And I still gotta get my lil' ink-seal "chop"... in probably XiaoZhuan... Mwahaha.

Err...


Which Naruto Character are You?
quiz by orangeday.net

2003/12/05

Splat

. . .Hrrmmm... The world is a strange, strange place. I probably won't be able to say goodbye to a certain friend here in Taiwan... ... and meanwhile there's certain other friends who'd rather not speak another word to me... o_O
. . .But it's good, I guess... ... keeps me thinking...

2003/12/03

Crunch

. . .So, I'm going to work very hard today. I'm going to be so effecient with my time that I'll finish at least one of my essays today in the 6-hour window that I have.
. . . ... ... ... just after this one game at http://www.addictinggames.com ...

Shock

. . .I can't believe that this computer has an Intel Pentium III processor. I just can't. This computer is as crappy as they come, and its owners don't really take good care of it either.... (sticky hard-to-use keyboard, VERY dirty screen, etc.)
. . .And time's flying... Can you believe it, I'm leaving on Friday next week! Maaan... and my essays are ehh... *ehem* mustn't type anything incriminating... ^^;
. . .Today was the penultimate paid English lesson. So I didn't end up making any money (really) in my stay in Taiwan... At best I made back the money I spent on daily transportation. heh. But at least I'm having the time of my life with shopping... whee... Can't say my nose and ears are enjoying themselves as thoroughly though; most people seem to be quite dull in their ability to hear and smell. Yeeesh.
. . .Ah, Toronto. Home sweet home. If only 'home' didn't come in the form of a terribly undersized condo. *sighs* From the sounds of it, I'll have to be doing some major rearranging when I get back...
. . .Meanwhile, the comic isn't terribly on schedule. It's a good thing I gave myself until next week to post something. ^__^ Though making you guys wait for so long might make the comic even more disappointing than it would have been if it had suddenly appeared online. Ah well. The story of my life...
. . .I'm actually trying in class now, and there's only a week left. Hah. Not much room for improving my grade, huh... Ah well.

2003/12/01

This looks like fun!

I AM: predominately a philosopher and artist
I WANT: to control time
I HAVE: long hair
I WISH: to be able to fly
I HATE: injustice
I MISS: Toronto
I FEAR: anger
I HEAR: more than most
I SEARCH: for absolution
I WONDER: about my academic survival
I REGRET: the past
I LOVE: God
I ACHE: in my heart
I ALWAYS: am thinking
I AM NOT: a lobster
I DANCE: the line between insanity and genius.
I SING: often
I AM NOT ALWAYS: perfect
I WRITE: letters, short stories, crappy poems, etc.
I WIN: !! But more importantly, you lose! Mwahaha
I LOSE: But I'll be back!!!
I NEED: Money. And lots of it.
I SHOULD: be more efficient.

Yes Or No...
x. You keep a diary: Most definately.
x. You like to cook: Yah, but it's time-consuming.
x. You have a secret you have not shared with anyone: That's a secret. ;)
x. You believe in love: ^_^
x. The Cutest Person you Know: n/a (ouch..)
x. Your closest friend: Hard to say... probably Alley.
x. The People who Know the Most about you: Frank C.
x. These aren't yes or no questions. No, they're missing a verb in the beginning... e.g. "DO you ~~ ?"

What is...?
Your most overused phrase on MSN/ICQ: o_O
The last image/thought you go to sleep with: "Will I wake up on time tomorrow?"

Do You...?
Have a (any) crush(es): no
Want to get married: yeah
Get Emotion Sickness: If by this question one means "do you sometimes get hung over your feelings," then yes.
Think you're a health freak: moderately.
Get along with your parents: It's a working model.
Like thunderstorms: as well as any other type of weather.

NATURAL HAIR COLOR: black-turned-deep-auburn
CURRENT HAIR COLOR: deep auburn
CURRENT HAIR STYLE: Stylish~
EYE COLOR: brown
BIRTHPLACE: Some hospital in downtown Toronto

(FAVORITES )
NUMBER: 3, 7, 13, 113, 1729
COLOR: mint/pale green.
DAY: Wednesday.
MONTH: "May" sounds nice.
SONG: always changing.
FOOD: Oriental
SEASON: Spring/autumn
SPORT: Chinese chess
DRINK: Soy Bean Milk

( PREFERENCES )
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT?: neither, if possible
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE? hot chocolate
MILK, DARK, OR WHITE CHOCOLATE? neither, if possible
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE? neither, if possible

( IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU.... )
CRIED? no
HELPED SOMEONE? yup
BOUGHT SOMETHING? yup
GOTTEN SICK? Well, I got fed-up...
GONE TO THE MOVIES? No.
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? Eh... went "out" to friend's house.
SAID "I LOVE YOU"? Only as an example to illustrate the difference in syntax between SVO and SOV sentence patterns.
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? Sorta... still not finished it though.
TALKED TO AN EX? N/A
MISSED AN EX? N/A
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? Yup.
HAD A SERIOUS TALK? Always?
MISSED SOMEONE? YES!! T_T
HUGGED SOMEONE? No.
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? No.
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? No.

NAME 7 THINGS YOU HATE:
1. social conflict
2. miscommunication
3. presumptuous people
4. malodorous scents (e.g. Tabacco smoke, male BO, stale food, etc.)
5. gaucherie
6. asymmetry in people. (e.g. pure logic and no feelings)
7. good intentions resulting in bad actions.

WOULD YOU EVER
1. Eat a bug? Not conciously.
2. Bungee jump? no.
3. Hang glide? no.
4. Kill someone? no.
6. Kiss someone of the same sex? Tempting, but no.
7. Have sex with someone of the same sex? Uhh...
8. Parachute from a plane? no.
9. Walk on hot coals? no.
10. Go out with someone for their looks? solely for her looks? never.
11. For their reputation? no
12. Be a vegetarian? no.
13. Wear plaid with stripes? never!
14. IM a stranger: yah
15. Sing karaoke? YES
16. Get drunk off your ass? never
17. Shoplift? no
18. Run a red light? N/A
19. Star in a porn video? never.
20. Dye your hair blue? No money.
21. Be on Survivor? never.
22. Wear makeup in public? No
23. NOT wear makeup in public? yes.
24. Cheat on a test? no.
25. Make someone cry? Let's not speak of the past...
26. Call your math teacher a motherfucker? never!
27. Kick a baby? never!
28. Date someone more than ten years older than you? eww...
29. Cuss out a priest? Not likely... ...unless he were Catholic... but even then...
30. Take a job as a janitor? Not if I had a choice...
32. Stay up all through the night? yes, but health is also important...
33. Drink straight espresso? huh? I'm guessing 'no'....

Comic

. . .Well, I still haven't given a lot of thought for where exactly I'll be posting/hosting these comics. And indeed I haven't been spending a lot of time either on actually drawing out the comic. But that doesn't mean the ideas are short, only paper... ... and maybe patience. Heh.
. . .Man, from the time my friend said it, it's been appearing to be more and more true -- my life like a comic strip. The things I do, the way I act in public, the way things turn out... my life is seriously some sort of intellectual comedy. Or maybe that's just my perception. Hrrm... Looking forward to Toronto... =D
. . .Worried about UW housing stuffstuff again... *sighs* if only I could chat with the landlord right now... but I don't really like talking to him.. he sounds scary... But I really do like/want that apartment... *prays*

Sorry

. . .Sorry boys and girls, but my previous comment box provider is finally at an end. Their horrible service and terrible coding have encouraged me to move on to try out haloscan. ^__^ So, alas, our great comment empire has come to an end, but hopefully, this new comment box provider will be more friendly...
. . .Meanwhile, I studied half of Sunday for my test today. And I'm so glad I did! BOOYA! I finally surpassed that annoying 85% mark; I got a 93%!! Despite the fact that I was aiming for perfect.... .... Anyways.. For the short-essay question, apparently, I have some Japanese grammar influencing my Chinese, which helped me lose some marks. But still. 93%. yay. ^_^ Interesting enough, during my entire time of studying on Sunday, I did it in front of the TV, watching various movies and stuff. LoL... Not like I'll be doing it again, but it was fun to try. But so painful... Never did four lines of text become so painful to memorize... Anyways...
. . .And now, to finish rushing those 2.5 essays for Dec. 10th.